The affair with Kate went on for sometime until I came back to my senses. She had given me all these reasons to justify why she very much wanted the affair to continue but I had made up my mind not to continue with the act since it was a sin and above all morally wrong. I tried explaining to her but she wouldn’t listen, all she wanted was to continue receiving the sexual satisfaction that had come to be. At one particular time she came to my place unannounced and Sam happened to have visited me on the very same day. Just imagine the shock he encountered, but being I was blessed with a persuasive tongue, I was able to justify her visit beyond any reasonable doubt. I had made up my mind not to continue down this sinful path. I had taken my time to pray for strength from God to help me overcome this but whenever she came around to See Me we always ended up having sex. Suspicion had started building up and rumors would spread around the church about a possible affair between us. I begged her to see the impact this affair would have on her marriage and both our images but she wouldn’t listen. “Aki mimi nakupenda na ni heri hata niwachane na bwana yangu ikifika ni sisi kuwachana, ” that’s what she always said. Things went from bad to worse when she learnt that I had a girlfriend and she was ready to fight her off even physically if need be just to keep me. That’s when I realised that I needed to act swiftly and end this affair. Her love for me had grown into an obsession that was now beyond reproach. I decided to quit the church and instead find a new church. The first step was to avoid her at all costs. Of course this didn’t go well with her, she would call late into the night and if I didn’t pick she would send these disturbing messages that freaked me out. “What did I get myself into? God if you rescue me from this nightmare I promise to give my life to you completely and never look back. Please Father, save me from this. ” that was a prayer I made knowing that only God would save me from the disaster I had gotten myself into. I never knew a married woman would be so unhappy in her marriage to the extent of wanting out so badly, I made a promise to God that I wasn’t about to break no matter the temptation that came my way. I had to leave a church I had grown to love for the sake of saving a marriage I was about to break. Things went from bad to worse when she would always come to my place for conjugal visits and if I wasn’t around she would sit outside and wait for me till I showed up. I was left with no choice but to shift to another area without her knowledge. I even had to change my phone number to ensure she doesn’t get a hold of me. No matter what the temptation we may face it’s always wise to avoid engaging ourselves in sinful and unacceptable acts. We are humans with feelings and that shouldn’t be a reason to justify sinful behavior. I must admit that Kate gave me the most exciting sexual experience I had never encountered but all that is vanity. Clinging onto it would have made me loose the bigger picture. I am glad I rescued myself from what was a ticking time bomb. I have shifted my focus and no amount of sexual desire can make me turn back. I know am forgiven and am not turning back.